I have heard my daughter refer to herself as being "broken", referring to something she feels isn't "right" about herself.
My life is broken!
It isn't the life I had planned.
I am not doing the things I wanted to be doing now that I am retired!
But, it isn't the things I want or wish for that makes me broken...
Mostly I think my heart is broken.
Not broken because of myself; but because of the pieces that are broken in my husband's brain...
The parts that dementia has taken from him.
Life will continue! I know it will continue! Life must continue!
Whatever may be broken can not necessarily be fixed. But, as I live through the hard parts, even if I hit the very bottom, I will grow in strength and understanding. I will grow in knowledge, learning more and more about this "disease". I will learn how to handle things; or how not to handle them!
I will learn that no matter what, I will survive! I will move forward...
I will continue to do things that I love to do; some including my husband and others without him...
But, I will continue!
Because I know that however broken I may be today...Tomorrow is another day and "the sun is going to rise again."
Go to Write 28 Days 2019 for a list of all posts for this challenge.
To check out my first Write 31 Days challenge from 2014, "31 Days of Dementia's Demands", go to Barbara's Blog.
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