Friday, June 23, 2017

Five Minute Friday - STEADY


Five Minute Friday

The Five Minute Friday community has a new look!  And, I am working on a new look for my weekly posts for FMF too.

I am also hoping to link up more often as I try to begin writing again!

For more information on Five Minute Friday, check out the five minute friday community on Facebook.  And, after writing your own post, share it on the weekly five minute friday link-up.


This week's word is:

STEADY

Life can get a little crazy sometimes, knocking us off balance.  Unexpected medical issues; auto or home repairs not planned...

Any number of things that throw us off our steady lives.

In these moments, we need something - someone? - to help us get our balance back.

Maybe it's just a simple gesture; a message or comment on Facebook or our blog.  Or maybe it's a phone call - a voice on the other end to reassure us everything will be alright!

Better yet...

In today's technology...FACE TIME!

Maybe it's something even more personal; one on one...

Like a HUG perhaps!

Whatever it takes for that crazy moment to pass; to get our balance back and steady us once again.  So we can move on 'til the next bit of craziness!

Sometimes all it takes is a song, or perhaps a beautiful dance to a beautiful song!  Allowing us to take another breath as tears flow steadily down our face.

A moment to breathe and know life will go on.  Our next breath will put us back on track, slowly and steadily moving forward once again.

Sharing a bit of music and dance to steady you even more by the brother/sister team of Derek and Julianne Hough, "Unsteady"; you may need to have tissues with you as you watch this video:


This still brings tears to my eyes even months after first seeing them perform it on the show, Dancing with the Stars.


Praying you have those people in your life that can help steady you when life gets a little crazy!


Thursday, June 22, 2017

Simple Woman's Daybook - June 19, 2017






FOR TODAY
June 19, 2017


Looking Out My Window:
The mowers are out in full force!  That is what I am hearing!

The weather looks nice; not too hot or too cold...predicted temps at around 77 at 11:00 am, and going up to the low 80's.

I can handle that as long as it's not too hot and humid!  I get so worn out with temps so hot you can't breathe!!

I Am Thinking:
What am I thinking today?  Perhaps about getting busy and cleaning this apartment?

Or, making some things for a craft fair in December?

Or, just relaxing and not doing anything!

{That was Monday; the best laid plans...my week took a totally different turn, with an unplanned visit to the doctor and to the emergency room for an outpatient ultrasound on my leg...

more later when I get more info.}


I Am Thankful:
For the encouragement and support I get from my friends...

Some are my local scrappin' friend.

But, many are my online crafting and/or blogging friends.

One of My Favorite Things:
Chatting with my friends online!  It's amazing what we can find to "talk" about when we are typing out our conversation!

Thanks to my online friends, I can vent or cry or celebrate!  Whatever the need, they are there for me!

{And this morning...well, Thursday morning...my friend and I figured out how to do Face Time and had an actual conversation!  It was awesome to use this technology and show each other our "dis-organized" craft spaces!!}

I Am Creating:
Finished all of my swaps for June; waiting to see what the Challenge will be.
Birthday Theme Memory Dex Card


Wedding Theme Pocket Art/Letter

 
Close-up of Pocket Art Title


American Indian Theme Tag
(criteria was to use a different size and shape)

Close-up of Indian Girl


I Am Wearing:
Well, since I didn't get this completed earlier this week, tonight (Thursday) I am wearing a pink night shirt with little dogs all over it; a pair of black pj bottoms; and a pair of socks.


I Am Reading:
I just finished reading John Grisham's "The Appeal"; took me about a week to get the whole book read!  That's a record because I'm usually doing so many other things and don't get to read much...

Picked up another book at the used book store the other day and will start it the next time I get ready to sit down and read!


I Am Hoping:
This rain lets up soon!  I know...we need the rain; but enough is enough!!

But, it is Hurricane Season and already seeing some of those weather issues out in the waters...

Just hoping, and praying, none are major this year!


I Am Learning:
Am I?  Some days I feel like I am failing the test; like I haven't learned anything from all these days and days of dealing with someone with dementia and hearing loss.

Every day is a new day; and usually a new set of things to learn.

So, I am learning; and the learning never stops!


In My Kitchen: 
All dirty dishes in the dishwasher and ready to start just before I head to bed.

Post Script:
No real P.S. this week!  Maybe I'll browse the 'net before next week's post!


Shared Quote:
Rather than a quote, today I will be sharing a piece I came across while writing my Write31Days post for October 28, 2014.

During this 30-day challenge, I wrote on the theme:  "31 Days of Dementia's Demands".  (This series can be found on my old blog, Barbara's Blog under the tab "31 Days".)


DEMENTIA – I HATE YOU

Dementia – I hate you!
I hate what you’ve robbed from me
I hate that you dictate my day
I hate that you’ve made me a stranger
I hate that you’ve made me the enemy
I hate that you’ve made me cry
I hate that you’ve made me laugh
I hate you!

Dementia - you enrage me!
You make me lose my temper
You make me feel out of control
You make me want to scream
You make me want to punch
You make me want to kick
You make me want to fight
You enrage me!

Dementia – you terrify me!
I’m terrified of the future
I’m terrified who’ll be next
I’m terrified I will be next
I’m terrified I will forget my children
I’m terrified my children may forget also
I’m terrified there’ll never be a cure
You terrify me!

Dementia – you cause me despair!
You took my innocence
When you took my Grandma
You took my strength
When you took my Father
You’re taking my heart
As you steal her away
You cause me despair.


(by Traci Story for Lewy Body Dementia Association www.lbda.org/  )

A Moment From My Day:
My day is always flexible; no day is really routine, though I attempt it to be.  Especially on Mondays when I usually get the laundry and some cleaning done.

But, it's flexible and I can do those things on another day.

This week, on Monday I went to spend some time with my daughter, son and grandson.  We played board games and just hung out together for a while before I headed back home.
And that ends another week of Simple Woman's Daybook!

Join me once again next week for a look inside this simple woman's day!



Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Tears of Hope and Joy



Dry eyes!  That's what the eye doctor told me the other day.

My eyes are dry and these allergies don't help; or the medicine I take for the allergies doesn't help the dryness.

My eyes are dry; my tears have dried up and no longer shed.

But, I'm an emotional person and I do cry!  I do shed tears...quite often!

The truth is, sometimes it is when I am alone that I shed the tears that have been held back.

I don't want to be seen as vulnerable.

I don't want him to know that I am crying.

My tears flow in private.

A few years ago I wrote a poem titled, "Where the Tears."  It was written for a friend who had shared with me that cancer had been found in her thyroid.

At first, unable to cry, I wrote the beginnings of the poem.

Later during a church service we were both participating in, the tears were found and flowed freely.

"You messed up my poem!"  I told her...and finished writing it later that night.

Today, I dedicate this poem to my friend, whom, thank God, is still with us!  And to many others who have lost that fight.


"Where the Tears?"

Emotions - deep within my soul -
Sorrow, joy, fear, happiness, hurt.
Sharing, caring; emotions out of control;
But ... where the tears?

My heart aches, cries out,
"Why God, why?"
Life is so unfair.
Why has this happened?
Surely the tears will flow;
But, where the tears?

Deep inside tears fill my soul
Yearning to be shed.
Emotions - deep within my soul.
I look you in the eyes with love and concern.
But, dry-eyed I wonder,
"Where the tears?"

Then without a word;
With just a look of love 
from friend to friend,
Words are choked
back beneath the flood,
As slowly, freely
The tears begin to fall.


While the words for this post were running through my head, I also heard the song, "That's Why God Made Tears" sung by Matt Hammitt.

Listen now to the words:





As I've said before, my word for this year is "Hope".  Yet, I am still wondering where the "Joy" is, just as I wondered where the tears were!


I believe that Joy is found in the Hope we have in Jesus Christ, our Saviour.

I believe that Hope is found in our Joy.

May you find both in your journey through life!

  

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Simple Woman's Daybook - June 12, 2017






FOR TODAY
June 12, 2017


Looking Out My Window:
Today, it's Tuesday and the weather was a bit overcast.  We did have a little rain and thunderstorms; but it didn't help the temperature...it was in the mid 80's!


I Am Thinking:
About the obligations that I have and how burned out and overwhelmed I am right now.


I Am Thankful:
For friends I can discuss things with; like, how frustrated I am in the way things are going with certain positions.

Or, how overwhelmed and upset I get with my husband and health issues.

Or, just to share our creative projects with each other.


One of My Favorite Things:
Taking on a challenge and coming up with an idea...

Then, creating what is in my mind.

I Am Creating:
This month's tag swap - which has been a real challenge - is an American Indian theme.  The criteria was to create a tag a "different size and shape" than a regular 4 1/2 x 8 inch tag...

So, I am attempting to make a dream catcher!  Photos later...



I Am Wearing:
It is Tuesday evening, just before taking my shower and getting ready for bed.  So, I am wearing a green-ish shirt and a pair of tan shorts with my black bedroom slippers.

I Am Reading:
Close to the end of "Tangled Vines" by Janet Dailey; quite a good book!

Hoping to do a lot of reading this summer; but also a lot of crafting!

I Am Hoping:
...and praying that all goes well this Friday with my husband's surgery to remove skin cancer on his face, near his nose.  Not worrying over it; just keeping him from getting worried and upset over it...


I Am Learning:
Perhaps I am finally learning how to act/react to the outbursts my husband has?

Well, I can only hope and pray that I am...


In My Kitchen: 
Leftovers for dinner; kitchen has been cleaned up...

And, I think I'd better go get the clothes out of the dryer!!

Post Script:
That's about all for this week; no P.S. or other site to share at this time...

Perhaps next week?!

Shared Quote:
I am working on a project with the theme American Indian.  While browsing Pinterest and trying to figure out what I wanted to do, I came across this quote:



A Moment From My Day:
There are not very often little moments of "intimacy" between my husband and I; but sometimes just the smallest touch is enough.

Today, he came into the room while I was on the computer and started lightly rubbing my back; more like scratching the itch I had!

It was sweet and I kept urging him on...

Nothing major; but the little things are major when dealing with someone who has dementia!


So, that's all for this week's Simple Woman's Daybook.

This is a very busy week; and I have already shared some of what is happening.  Prayers are always appreciated!


Friday, June 9, 2017

Five Minute Friday - EXPECT

Five Minute Friday

The Five Minute Friday community has a new look!  My post for FMF each week is also getting a new look...

And I am hoping to link up more often as I try to begin writing again!

For more information on Five Minute Friday, check out the five minute friday community on Facebook.  And, after writing your own post, share it on the weekly five minute friday link-up.


This week's word is:

EXPECT

I didn't expect my words would make a difference!

I didn't expect anyone would even read them!

I didn't expect what I had to say would even be understood, much less read at all!

I didn't expect to continue writing for so long...

Then to just stop!

Maybe I ran out of words?  Maybe I just didn't have anything else to say!

But, the words keep coming to mind.  They don't always get transferred onto paper or the computer; but they keep coming.

I didn't expect what was on my blog would still be read; would still be comforting and meaningful to anyone.

I didn't expect...

But, it happened!

It's encouraging to know that someone has read my words; and they have inspired and touched them.  It's humbling to know that I did that...I wrote those words...

Yet...

They are not my words alone!  I had help!  One who puts these ideas and words into my mind, touches my heart and soul in order for me to touch others...

I didn't expect it to happen!

But it did!!



{Thank you to my friend for our chat; and for honoring me with your words...you know who you are; and I appreciate you so much!!}