Friday, April 28, 2017

Five Minute Friday - MORE

Well, here I am again!  Time for another Five Minute Friday, and I am...writing again!  It feels great to be writing, sharing what's inside!

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This week's word is More:

I want More!

Well, that is what Jennifer Lopez says on the upcoming new show about dancing, in which she is one of the judges...

After listening to a group perform, she says,

"I want more!"  With a grin on her face and "boo's" from the audience who think she is dismissing the group.

Then she adds the fact that she wants them to stick around so she can hear more of what they have to share!

Unfortunately, this is not my cry.

Instead, I cry out, Enough!  I have had enough and I don't want any more!!

Each day brings its own different "experience" or situation.  Each day I see a different side of what dementia can do to a person...

As a caregiver, I know I should be more patient, understanding, considerate, whatever!  But, as a spouse who is the caregiver, it's hard.

Yes, I guess I do want more:

More love!
More understanding!
More time together - without the arguing and misunderstandings.
More cuddles and hugs and...

Just more of what you would think a spouse would give.

But, instead I say I don't want any more of the reality of our relationship:

No more yelling at me because he hasn't really heard what I said.

No more spending half the time repeating what I've said two or three times already; only to have him reply, "Whatever" because he still hasn't heard me!

No more handling things all alone.

No more wanting to do things other couples do; instead, just doing it alone, or with other family or friends...or just not doing it at all!

I am ready for the future to be more of the fun that I see other couples enjoying.  Is that really too much to ask for?!

Well, I am sure my five minutes are up; so, I will stop for now!

Hopefully I will be back next week!